I don't care if some kids (i.e students) resent me to the extent that they would rant about me, call me offensive and derogatory names on their blogs and stuff, but it definitely hurts when they intentionally hack into another student's blog and do it anonymously. In fact, even if the latter was to happen, I wouldn't have minded it so much. But once other teachers get implicated too, and especially the P, VP, or anyone else of paramount importance to the school gets implicated, it becomes an issue which cannot be taken lightly.
I am sad that this matter has to be surfaced to the sch's dis com. It is easy to be indifferent when I am reading the disparaging comments about myself alone but it is even more difficult to remain objective and share those comments (now considered evidence that cannot be tampered with) with people you don't really feel comfortable talking to at all.
As an adult, I hardly feel the need to be liked and accepted by my students but it fills me with amazement and, more acutely, disappointment, to know that somewhere out there, there are malicious and vindictive individuals who want to hurt not only me, but those (students) under my care too.
This is a very stressful period for all those in my vocation. It is the mid-year examinations! I have 10 ten stacks (i.e. classes) of markings to finish by thursday afternoon and I have only barely finished three stacks. Already, I can feel the rising panic within, as there are still loads of other admin stuff to do too. It does take alot of self-motivation to get myself going (because just to complete one class may take a good three to four hours, minimum, of diligent, non-stop marking), thus I had hoped that those whom I care about (and care about me) will understand the predicament I am facing and the mood-swings I may contract in the meantime.
However, I discovered something recently that caused my trust to waver. I want to be nonchalant, cold, and indifferent because if I were all of those things, then I would be incapable of being emotionally hurt. But at this point in time, I am not all of those things.
